Learning.

The things I have learn in the past month then in my whole life. 

1. Do not let anyone disturb your inner peace.

2. To be bitter is to not have forgiven.

3. Do not be fearful, be strong, be brave, be courageous!

4. Break the cycle of pain. 

I feel much better about my life.. 

Lost.

I had a topic that I wanted to rant about but it has kind of vanished. Well supanova had past, I didn't go because I didn't have any money and wasn't really feeling it. I have grown out of it. I will say that it was nice to see some of the photos. Some really good cosplays this year. :) 

I had spent a a month or so, helping my friend make his ironman suit. Cutting out every little damn piece for that thing. Hahaha he owes me big time. I will say for a first attempt, it came out nicely. :) I am so glad the bending over and cutting things out... Omg.. The paaaaaaain.. 

Ah well. 

Bless you  

Also micha, them aliens babies be creepy looking! 

Training?

Remember that time I was gonna work out and then it got really hot and I stopped?? Yeeeeaaahh I now weigh 78kgs... I think it is time to get my ass

Into gear and start working out again.. Because that is crazy.. On the upside I  have been taking better care of my skin and it is not like I am sitting on my arse day in, day out.. I have been doing stuff.. I have been working, aswell as going out :3 

Ah well

The fat kid inside is trying to escape.. Must beat her into submission with a carrot and hummus. Oooo sexual image much? 

A little shout out thanks to my dear friend, Micha, reassuring me on things when I was in doubt and when my brain was just being a downright idiot. 

Peace and understanding.

Ough..

Had quite the panic attack this morning without warning and without reason.. =\ I mean I havnt had one in a long time.. Why all of a sudden. 

60 million.

The things I would do with about 60 million? Well alot of things.. Because I think about it all the time when the lottery jackpots to about this amount.. And what I would do with it? Well that never changes.

1. Pay off my parents mortgage.
2. Buy my silly brother a house in Perth....
3. Pay off debts that I owe.
4. Pay off the churches mortgage.
5. Buy some friends, a house. (The deserving ones)
6. Donate money to several charities.
7. Buy myself an ESTATE/farm/cottage thing.
8. Fly all of my family to Perth for a holiday.
9. Buy a house in New Zealand.
10. Buy a castle in Wales.
11. Buy a house right next to Disneyland.
12. Visit Disneyland annually.
13. Visit Japan. All of Japan.
14. Tour all of Scandinavia.
15. Invade (Tour) the UK.
16. Visit Canada.
17. Live abroad in a country with snow for a year.
18. Open up a Krispy Kreme in Perth.
19. Live in Hawaii for a year.
20. Give about $10,000 to some deserving people.
21. Give out about 1000 $50 to randoms in a day.

It's a work in progress... Most of the money well be spent reasonably, and not just thrown about, planned.. Eg for the house I do not stay in. They will be rented out at a reasonable price.. I will be rich, so no high rent. :) but that is what I think I will do... I feel that most the time I will be giving it away to help others.. As giving makes you a whole lot happier then receiving.

Peace and understanding.

Money.

I have a heap of cash in my bank account and I dunno what to do with it!!!!!!!

It is just sitting there staring at me, taunting me...

Oz comic con.

That was on the weekend past :) at the Perth convention centre.. I pretty much spent most of my time in a queue.. Sort of like, a queue to queue. Yeeeeaaah.. We stayed at the adina apartment which was literally across the road.. Not even a road.

I got Richard dean Anderson's autograph.. He said my DS was the funnest thing he ever signed as well as thinking it was a phone. Hahaha xD and I got a complimentary picture with it too :D of a younger captain jack o Niel.

I also got Jason mamoa? Momoa? The guy who plays Ronan in stargate Atlantis, khal drogo in game of thrones and Conan the barbarian.

I also went to get Chris sabbat sig for a friend as well as get the one he did for me repaired as it had smudge :) he was kind enough to repair it and wrote "repaired by" and signed it again :3 silly man <3

All in all. A good weekend but feet still hurt..

Have fun y'all!

Sports bra

I bought a sports bra!! Woooo! I didn't know that exercising without a sports bra for a woman can be very managing to ones breasts until I read about it D: why did no one tell me when I started working out?!? Bleeeegh

:) oh well.

Oz comic con this weekend wooooot!

Also Micha, please let me know if you are alive please? Or I will bloody contact your sister on the book face! I swear I will. Worried bout joo.

The beginning.

Okay soooooo!! I am getting back in exercise and well I want to kind of document it.. I am not looking to lose weight, I am looking to tone up, gain some muscle and a healthier lifestyle!

So currently I weigh 76kgs.. Which is the right weight for my height! Which is 180cm :3 I just wanna be able to wear a bikini and not feel like bleghar.

Happy belated valentines day.

I got really lazy and tired over the weekend.. I wanted to post about valentines day.. There are alot of haters on valentines which prompt me to call it vagina day because of all the whiners whining about how their alone or how commercialize it is. I also called it vagina day because some dudes, I mean quite a few were getting laaaaaaid, but yes.. I really should say to those who bitch at people for doing something on valentines day, pipe the fuck down! I mean come on! It has nothing to do with you how a couple spends their valentines! Whether thu do something simple or something huge!! It could be a very special occasion to them. You don't know that, so don't bag on them!!!! Assholes. Now this is what I think of valentines day, valentines day isn't just about that special someone you have found, it is also about the love you have for the people who were there with you before that, yours friends and your family.. This is why I wish everyone a happy valentines day. And if you do not have a valentines for that day, don't panic because your friend probably doesn't have one either.. So share the love with your friends :3

My valentines day was greeeeaaatt at night, during the day I had to woooork Blegh! Hahaha I got flowers and a boofles and Choclates :D and went to the blue duck for dinner. We also plate the old couple new couple game. Ill explain that later.

In pain.

Well my mom is okay... But she can barely walk.. She had to have some surgery.. They opened up her cervix to take two samples and do a D&C. I have had to do everything around the house because my father is completely helpless due to stress....

I having working myself dead. I feel as though my back is broken.. But it doesn't seem to bother me.

What bothers me is that the two people I thought would check on me, did not. Not one bit after I told them. I am a little disappointed.. Though i shouldnt be, people have problems of their own, their own lives. But maybe it is a female thing to badger someone until they are positive that they are okay. But then again.. My ex boyfriend Den, has checked on me more often then not and my dear friend Micha has too, trying his best to put a smile on my face.. And Joze has been at my side at every moment as well as Claire. So I don't understand? I guess lives just get busy? As they say, out of sight, out of mind.

I do hope that mothers samples are nothing bad and that she gets well... I had to bribe her to stay home an not attempt to drive to work *sigh* yaaaaaaay...

I am tired.

I am spread thin.

Peace and understanding.

Why?

My mother is going to hospital this evening, so that she may get the growths on her uterus biopsy'd... As the doctors are very concerned that this is early stage of cancer....

I am a wreck... I am scared..

I don't want to lose my mommy.

I can't live without her.

Sad again.

I don't know why but I feel sad... Well actually I do but it wouldn't make sense to you. Some just expect me to be happy and get huffy when I can't snap into a good mood, others just don't understand or don't care. It's frustrating... I would drop eveything to help someone with their problem, busy or not. Why can't you give me the same courtesy that I have you? But that is not how it works I guess... "Treat others as you wish to be treated." Guess they didn't get the memo.

Would I be missed if I left? Perhaps a month or so.. But is all I can guess, I can't see the future.. Though I wish I could as I am tired of seeing the past.

On another note not only am I addicted to my little pony, I am also addicted to adventure time, but more the gender swap. :) I really want to get the fionna plush.

Summer.

Okay.. So I love to wear nice floral summer dresses.. Sadly! The weather has been an absolute bitch! It has been extremely hot and humid. Hot and humid! The kind of weather that makes you want to crawl into your freezer and never leave.... Blegh... Can't flaunt my summer awesome ness.. *huff* oh well the Internet gets to see it.

:D
Peace and understanding.